I went to to my allotment today; this is a piece of ground where I grow fruit and vegetables. Every year before the winter I have to clear all the weeds. One particular weed is called a Docking Leaf (this is its name in Scotland I don’t know what it is called anywhere else). The leaves show above the ground but it has very deep roots.
Sometimes the leaves come off and part of the root comes out the ground. You need to get the whole root out. I can get half the root out then rake the ground and it looks like it has been dealt with. In a few months it will reappear.
This is like my walk with Jesus the ground being my life, the docking leaf are my issues like fear, anxiety, anger, depression and self hatred. I can deal with some of these things and for a while things look fine; but I have only got part of the root out.
After a few months the same issues can reappear I can suddenly feel hopeless again, or fearful leading me back into hiding from people and Father God. I scream to myself ‘but I thought that I had dealt with these things’. I can feel like I have never moved on back to square one.
I need to let Father God look into my whole heart and deal with my people pleasing, my masks and my self hatred. Only this will get rid of the whole root.
Today Father I choose to let you closer to my heart than ever before.
Will you let him come closer to your heart today? Will you let him take all the root out today?