Fear of Relationships

Many times in my walk with Father God I have felt the joy of being in true fellowship with him. I have believed that I can walk on the water. I believe that these are the times when I actually do walk in his ways. The trouble with these times is that I believe that I have made it and stopped working at the relationship.

The trouble with myself is that I am afraid of relationships. The most trouble in my life came from broken relationships. I hid my pain in alcohol and drugs.

Jesus calls me to follow Him, which is fine, but he also wants a relationship. He wants to spend time with me. He wants to pour His love into my heart.  He wants to set me free. He wants to restore the years that the locusts have stolen. The trouble is he wants to do this through a relationship.

Relationships frighten me. It means being real, open and honest. I would feel vulnerable if I was to  be open and honest as it is revealing who I am deep down.

I want to write this blog about how my life really is; not what I pretend it is. This is the truth about myself. Jesus is the truth. It is the truth that sets me free.

Today I choose to reveal a part of who I really am.

Will you show people who you really are today?

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About cleavinghearts

I go to church in Troon Scotland. I want to see men from every nation rise up in Christ and be who they are called to be. I am interested in men getting together to praise and just do men's things. I also want to see women rise above their pain and turmoil so they are free to follow Jesus without the hindrances of their past.
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3 Responses to Fear of Relationships

  1. yinkaenahoro says:

    I really do identify with you about relationships… My fear of them came from child abuse and subsequent feelings of inadequacy which led me into other painful relationships. Slowly and surely, with Jesus, I’m climbing out of that box.

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