Road To Faith. Stewarton High 4

After the 2 years going to Robertland primary I left for Stewarton High School. I was very fearful and wasn’t wanting to go as I wanted things to stay the same. When I had reached a place that I liked I became afraid of losing what I had. I had become insecure.

When I walked through the gates my old thoughts returned, fear, self hatred and rejection. I also felt that  I would never get free from these feelings deep down inside. I would dread everyday.

I never told anybody as I never trusted anyone. I began to have trouble maintaining relationships, I was afraid of people. I was hiding who I was deep down inside.

One New Year at my Aunts house I was given a can of Lager, it tasted awful but  I had to prove that I ‘was a real man’. After the can it was as if all my inner turmoil had left, I could be who I wanted to be.

I believed that I had found the answer. I only wanted to drink from then on, I used to dream of drinking as I believed that it was setting me free.

My problem was how could I keep drinking. I must look for a job but I  was only 14 and was still at school.

I am telling my story in order to show people hoe Jesus set me free. I am happy for people to comment and discuss with me any points I have made.

Blessings

 

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About cleavinghearts

I go to church in Troon Scotland. I want to see men from every nation rise up in Christ and be who they are called to be. I am interested in men getting together to praise and just do men's things. I also want to see women rise above their pain and turmoil so they are free to follow Jesus without the hindrances of their past.
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