I began to spend time with Trish at The Lighthouse there was a heart connection from the beginning. We spent hours talking about scripture and learning how to walk in the truth.
Many times we prayed through issues until the chains were broken. I learned to have pictures in my mind, I believed as I got to know Trish then my relationship with Jesus was also getting deeper. I was talking about the inner secrets which I never shared with anyone, especially Jesus in case He rejected me.
One day in my mind I got an image of Trish in a wedding dress and me standing beside her.
Jesus was using Trish to take away my rejection, fear and low self esteem. I still think like this at some times in the day but that is the old man speaking not the new creation me.
Every now and again I would see Trish was actually very beautiful. A part of my heart belonged to her. I kept saying to myself ‘don’t be stupid this is old behaviour patterns’. I knew in my heart there was something more.
One day I told Trish I got a picture of her in a wedding dress with me beside her.
She said what ‘are you trying to say?’.
I replied ‘ I think we are going to get married.’
Trish just laughed.
She said ‘I will marry you if God shows me 100 palm trees!!!!’
Remember this is Scotland!!!!!!!!!!
Fair enough I replied.
And Trish laughed!!!!!!